So, a whole new set of things to stress over!! 1st) Melissa and I are getting nowhere as far as finding a place goes. She wants to look on Friday or Saturday. I hoped to be using those days as cleaning days, which bring me to 2nd) This house is an utter mess. I really need to start packing away everything and getting rid of any crap I may have. But I work most of the days until the trip and it looks like one of my two days off will be spent taking a course because 3rd) is that I don't have this Food certificate you need to work in a restaurant and if I don't get it on Friday I will be most likely out of a job when I come back from Mexico.

anyways, besides spazzing out over everything, I've been doing fairly well. Parents came out to visit, as I already noted. It was ok, but I can only put up with small doses of my family at a time. Too many little arguments. Bought my greyhound ticket the other day. Another thing to check off my list. I'm in the process of trying to roll all my pennies. This is more of a chore than it sounds like because I've been saving up all my pennies for the last 3 years. I'm probably gonna do something different with my hair when I go out to Calgary. I'm leaning towards dying it black, thinning it, and trimming it a bit so it doesn't look so bad. If anyone has any suggestions, tell me. So lately I've had an obsession with hot wax. Not like sticking my fingers in a candle and peeling it off type thing, but like pouring it on my stomach and chest type thing. I don't really know why. Maybe it's because I have like 10 candles and no real use for them. And no, I don't use a ball gag when I do any of this. Although...

Peter will be packing up his computer soon so my internet time will be cut down. We are also disconnecting the phone soon, so if anyone tries to call me, use my cell. Or e-mail me, because I'll be checking my e-mail everyday at the library.

I had to make a decision on whether to blog right now, or wait until I'm back from Mexico and do an unreasonably huge blog. I'll do a smaller one now because my long blogs tend put people to sleep.
So I've been semi-stressing about this coming May. At first I was stressing about my passport (which has thankfully been taken care of) and now a few weeks ago, Peter tells me he's quit his job and is moving out. It's a bit sooner than we had planned and now I'm stuck having to find a place before I head to Mexico. But luckily Melissa at work needs a roomie and we get along pretty good. We're hopefully gonna look at a few places on Friday. Still, the stressing continues as I have no clue how I'm gonna move. Melissa and I will probably rent a Uhaul for the day and use that. So in reality, I don't have a lot to stress over. I really need to get a hold of our landlord as well to give him our months notice. Pete refuses to talk to him because it's apparently my job to give the months notice because my name is on the lease. Utter bullshit if you ask me.
The parents are coming to visit tomorrow. They're are bringing their new Santa Fe as well as my little sister and her b/f Cam. That should be cool as I can use my parents to help me bring all my crap I'll never use to the salvation army. We're all having a family meal at Hugo's tomorrow. Pete's coming too because we're both a part of each others family, whether we like it or not. Damnit! I just realized I forgot a box I was gonna pack with at work. Looks like I'm cutting this blog short and running to hugos to get it. Shit!
Cam

Ok, so this will be interesting. I don't really have my thoughts sorted out at the moment, so this will seem pretty obscure. No Pete, I am not intoxicated in any way, shape, or form.

I'm not going to lie, in the past 2 weeks, I've gone out drink a few times. And by 'a few' I mean a lot. It started a few days before my birthday up until last night. I'm not going to discus the issue of my drinking, although it is an issue. Throughout these social outings, I've observed some things which have greatly disturbed me. The problem is, I'm not at all sure of why these things (which I will discus) disturb me. Let me start from the beginning. I know people's behavior changes with alcohol. It's not exactly a secret. I tens to get way too talkative and annoying. Other's get violent, dumb, and/or horny. But I've noticed other changes. It seems that when we drink, there is a change in one's conduct. I'm not talking about the effects of alcohol, but a change in the set of rules that we use in everyday life. Things that you wouldn't normally do become no problem. We do things with little or no thought of the consequences. For example; during my birthday party on Friday (thanks for remembering guys) we went bar hopping. Now I don't want to use names or have anybody really be offended, so I'm going to give a blurred/altered version of this. So there's a guy friend of mine with us, and he has his eyes on a girl. So later that night I see them making out and pay little attention because he told me he was going for her. Not 5 min later, I see the same guy making out with another girl in our party. I question the first girl and she doesn't seem to mind in the least because we're all out having fun. Now because I was fairly intoxicated, this remark had little effect on me. That is, until I woke up the next morning. You people may hate me for this, but so far in my life, I've been almost immune to hangovers. Call it good genes, call it luck, whatever. The point is, I woke up with a fairly clear mind and a pretty good memory of what happened and I've been disturbed about it ever since. I've already consulted a friend and she seems to think it's just the alcohol, but I can't see just the alcohol causing this. If I'm going to make out with someone, drunk or not, I want it to mean something. I can't imagine myself doing it for the fun of it. Yes, I know you all are yelling 'Cam you ignorant moron, haven't you heard of a fling??' and yes I have. But I don't think that explains the apathy of someone who knows they're getting played. I want to know if this is like this elsewhere, or just here in Victoria, because in my experience while drinking, this is the only place that I see this happening, and it happens a lot. If any of my Vic friends read this, I hope you take no offense, because I just wanna figure out what he hell is going on. To anyone else, yes you're right, I should have put a warning in front of this to save you all from wasting 5min you'll never ever get back.